Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Bottomless Pit!

That has been me the past 2 days--Sunday and Monday. Not sure why...things have been running through my head..is it the nursing? Not enough water? No idea, but I'm ready for it to be over! I'm hoping today (Tuesday) is better! I've tried to keep it in check, but it's been VERY hard!

In other things...sleep is a WONDERFUL thing! Izaac has slept 6 or more hours every night now since last Wednesday night. It's been awesome for me!!! We are still at my mom's and having a blast. Izaac is 2 months old today!!!! I can't believe it. He's gotten so big and he's really starting to talk and coo at us and I get tons of smiles from him EVERY day! I love it!!!

Today is me and DH anniversary--8 years!!! We've been together for 12 years. Sure doesn't feel that long, so I guess that's a good thing! I have a nice present waiting for me when we get home on Saturday. Last night DH found an open box special on the brand new washer and dryer I've been wanting. I'm so excited!!! It's the Whirpool Cabrio. I am so excited!!!! I've had my eye on a red one, but they don't make the top loaders in red. The one he got me is diamond dust, I guess. I did not want a front loader and those were wayyyyy too much money. I'm so excited and blessed. I truly have the best DH. He is so good to me and is such a good provider for our family. He is the best daddy too. He is my best friend and I love him more today than I did the day I married him. Happy anniversary my love!!!

Gotta get things going.... My sister and I are taking DS1 to the movies this afternoon to see Kung Fu Panda and then out for dinner afterwards. Guess they are my date for my anniversary...but that's okay. DH and I have a babysitter planned for Saturday night when we get back. Make today a great day! :)

Friday, June 20, 2008

4 days down...a lifetime to go!

Okay, I've done it! I have successfully counted points AND stayed within those points for 4 days now. I was even below my points yesterday (Thursday). I got on the scale Wednesday morning and was down 2# since FRIDAY! And I just started my "one day at a time" point counting on Monday. WOO HOO!!!

But now...I am at my mom's. Yep...made the trip Thursday....should have been 2 hours and 15 minutes...ended up being 4.5 hours--YIKES! The boys did AWESOME, however, so I won't complain. And I conquered a fear yesterday....nursing in public. I nursed DS2 while DS1 and I ate at Taco Bell. It was the only option I had so I went with it. Thank god for a nursing cover, otherwise I would have flashed my boob, but I'm getting better at that even! Anyway...back to being at my mom's. She does NOT eat right...BUT, I have come armed with meals to cook that are point friendly. My mom is trying to lose weight, but yet, she doesn't want to eat right or eat things good for you. Sigh...it's a never ending battle with her. Oh well!

Today is THE DAY! I am chopping off my hair! I can't wait!!! And yes, I am going to donate it. I am so excited...gotta find some new sassy, chic look for me. I will post pictures (before and after) once I get home next week...can't do it from mom's. Have a great weekend! Gotta hit the shower and pump. :)

Oh! Before I forget....Zac slept through the night Wednesday AND Thursday nights!!!! 10-5 both nights!!! Then he gets up, eats and goes right back to sleep. WOO HOO!!! And...he is 8 weeks old now. HOORAY!!!!

Sunday, June 15, 2008

I'm taking your advice...and PLANKS?!?

I am taking the advice of more than one person here this coming week. Instead of waiting until I hit 159 to chop off my hair, I'm doing it NOW.


8 inches...going to be GONE!

What made me make this decision? Well, the fact that it was HOT the other day when I went on a walk at 10 A.M. with the boys and my hair stuck to my neck. Oh lord it was HOT. And I HATE my hair sticking to me. And I hate to wear a ponytail every day too. I hate the kinks it leaves in my hair. Oh and Zac LOVES to grab onto my hair and NOT let go. It hurts! So, I'm chopping it off on Friday. WOO HOO!!! But...DH doesn't know yet. ;)

The boys and I are leaving on Thursday to go to my moms for 10 (yes, that says TEN!) days. I'm gonna chop it on Friday and not tell DH. I'll let him see it when we get home a week from Saturday. He won't care, but I can't wait to see his face. :)

In other news....

I got my WW magazine in the mail the other day. There is an article in there called "Ab Fab" and gives you a 10 minute workout that combines Pilates moves and cardio. SEEMS easy enough, no? Well, there's a word in there I haven't done before....PLANK. SOUNDED easy enough.....so I tried one. You're supposed to hold for 30 seconds. Ummmm, yeah....I held for about 5! Swizzlepop (and anyone else who can do this), I BOW to you. Holy mother of god that was hard. But....at least I have something to work towards, right? Granted, I did just have a baby and I haven't worked out more than walking and stairs in a loooooong time. But I have 89 days until our vacation. I know I won't be "Ab Fab" but it would be NICE to at least be back to my pre-preg weight (166).

I got released from my OB/GYN the other day so I can resume all regular activities. So I'm TRYING to get back into some kind of activity. As long as it doesn't affect my milk supply, I'm good to go. So I'm trying....still holding my own in the weight area. I've stopped gaining and I'm just holding where I'm at (185) which is better than gaining. UGH. Oh well.... BFF Superjayman said if I really buckled down she thinks I could lose a good amount between now and our beach vacation. She may have a point....... It's so hard to get that motivation back...it really is. But if I can just do ONE day, then maybe the next day wouldn't be so hard. I should take it the way I am taking breastfeeding...one day at at time. That's my new mantra I think.

Gotta go...gotta get some sleep before the little one gets up to eat again.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

36 points....

That's how many *I* get in a day right now.


This morning I decided to take charge and just see how many points I would get right now. I figured it up and it came up to 36. Now, if I can't lose on 36 points a day then there's a problem! So I'm starting to count points...I think. I'm going to try anyway. I tried to "be good" yesterday. I can do GREAT at breakfast...then lunch comes and I take a nose dive into whatever we are having. Yesterday DS had corndogs...so I had one...well okay, I had 2. Ouch. And chips. And dip. Double ouch. Dinner wasn't much better and the boys had been bears all day. The little one mostly....so by dinner I was fit to be tied. BUT...that was yesterday.

So today I am starting fresh...well trying to. I had to go to the dentist today and knew I would be starving afterwards. I had ate a pretty good breakfast but I knew I would be hitting something after the dentist. So I hit Taco Bell (which, BTW, is the first fast food I've had in TWO WEEKS--thank you very much). I had PLANNED to get stuff off the fresco menu. But they didn't have any of the fresco stuff (I'm guessing b/c of the tomato/salmonella outbreak). So I got my usual. Not the best...BUT...I'm writing it down AND counting it. Hey--at least it's holding me accountable, right?!?

So now I'm jonesing the web and Roni's site for some point friendly and EASY dinners for next week. Gotta hit the store tomorrow and I need to be armed with a good for you menu and list. We'll see how it goes.

I did get on the scale this past Friday and it was the same. So if I'm eating anything I want and maintaing the same weight, then if I watch it and count points I'm hoping to see some kind of a loss. I'll hit the scale again Friday and see what it says.

Gotta run...Zac is up and probably wants to eat. :)

Monday, June 9, 2008

Have you seen these? A product find/review

Rubbermaid has these new PRODUCE SAVER storage containers out. (I tried to put in a picture, but I'm not THAT computer savvy.)

Always having a hard time keeping strawberries before they go bad, I knew I had to have these when I saw the $1.00 coupon in the Sunday paper last week. So I went to Target last Monday and bought 2 of the 5 cup containers. Let me just say....

I LOVE THEM!!!!!!!!!!!

On Tuesday I bought zucchini and peppers at the store and cut them up when I got home, put them in the container and they are still good! I'm down to the last few bits and those will be gone today. I put grapes in the other container and they're still good too! I bought strawberries the other night and came home and promptly put them in one of the containers and still good--NO MOLD!!! And I ALWAYS have mold on my strawberries after 24 hours or so if I don't cut them up right away. I just tossed them into the container until I could get to them. Oh this is an answer to my prayers! I just had to tell ya! I'm currently surfing Amazon to see if I can get more of them (with free shipping of course) b/c I know they will get used in my house.

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Embracing the suck....

I think it's time I started to embrace the things that suck about my body right now. Yes, this is a whiney post. But I haven't done one in a VERY long time, so here goes.

Right now, my body sucks. I love that it has now grown 2 children and is currently nuturing DS2 with my milk. I love that. What I don't like is how MOST women who breastfeed don't have a period the entire time....well I am not even 6 weeks post partum yet and I THINK mine is trying to come back. WTF?!?! With DS1, it came back at 7 weeks but at that point I had started to give up breastfeeding with him, so I understood THEN. But now?!? We're going strong and it's going pretty good so I shouldn't be having a period. Grrr....

Why is it that most women who breast feed the weight just melts off of them? But me? I'm gaining! WTF?!? I have a friend who is BFing her baby (she's 9 months old now) and she can't gain weight...it's just coming off of her. AND she is one of these people who does NOT need to lose weight. She's trying to gain and she can't! SO NOT FAIR!!! She eats full fat cheese, drinks whole milk, NOTHING low fat or low cal EVER and she can't gain weight. UGH. It's people like that who drive me nuts. Why can't *I* be that way? Why can't the weight melt off of me!?! For once, why can't something go the way it should with my body???

I'm even on Synthroid for my whacked out thyroid and I'm still not losing. It's sooo unfair! I even had a "controlled" gain with this pregnancy. My goal was 39# or less...I gained 38. The recommended gain is 25-35, so I was just fine with 38. Most of my "fat" clothes still don't fit, yes I did get into a pair of capris the other day but they were tight. I wore them b/c I am so sick of maternity clothes. And a shirt? Forget it. My boobs are DD now (was a C before I got pregnant) and I am fine with the boobs...but in order to wear a shirt it has to be an XL, so I wear a lot of DH T-shirts.

I'm just having a bad body image day. I soooo hate my hair and I can't wait to cut it off but I have told myself not until I get to 159. I feel like I will NEVER get there! I go back to the doctor next week for my check up and I plan to ask her a few questions then. But I know the answers to most of them. I have to keep telling myself "you just had a baby" but some days that doesn't make it any better!

BUT...I am trying to embrace it. Notice I said TRYING?? Yeah, it's been real hard today. I NEED to go buy some clothes that fit and make me feel better but I just hate to spend the $$$ when they hopefully won't fit for very long. I need to just let it go and know that I am feeding another human being so I should just let that be the #1 priority right now. But it's so very hard. Ahhh....

Sorry for the whiney/bitchy post, but I needed to get this off my chest. I promise my next post will be a happier one. :)