Sunday, December 6, 2009

I did it!

I signed up for the half marathon on May 8...AND I signed up to RUN it!


Deep breaths....calm down....


Yep--I did it! My sister signed up with me so I will have a partner in crime when I cross that finish line. I hope I can do it. I'm going to try my hardest that's for sure. A friend of mine ran one in our hometown back in October and she wants me to do one with her in April down there--an inaugural half marathon and marathon. Obviously, we'd only do the half. I have absolutely NO DESIRE to do a full marathon. I plan to run the one she did in October NEXT October and another one here at home in November next year too to (hopefully) keep bettering my time. :)

DH and I are thinking about doing a couple triathlons next summer as a team. He would do the swim and bike and I would do the run. He can't run anymore (bad knees) and we just got brand new awesome bikes so he should be able to keep up with the other bikers. I got a bike for exercise and to be able to go on bike rides with my kids next summer, so I didn't get a 'racing' bike (neither did DH). I wanted to be comfortable and be able to exercise...and I LOVE my bike! The bicycle shop was awesome too. Love that customer service!

Now...if only I could NOT proceed to get a big as a house this holiday season, I'd be doing GREAT! UGH!! I've decided that I really don't want to gain anymore than I already have with my inactivity (more on that in a minute) so I'm hoping to get through these next few weeks without having major gains. If it weren't for the darn weekends I'd be in better shape. :) Wouldn't we all?? BFF is coming to town the last of the month too and that always spells trouble. I love her to death but we eat out like fiends when she is in town and she's a bad influence! (she'll say it's me). :)

As far as the ankle goes, I am boot free now! I'm supposed to be working my time up on the elliptical...that isn't going so well but I am PAIN FREE!!! When I am on my feet for a long time, my ankle will give me fits but other than that I am doing GREAT where that is concerned. I see the doctor on Tuesday and I am hoping he will say I don't need any more PT. I had to cancel last week b/c I had sick (throwing up sick) kids. NOT FUN! I'm not doing my exercises the way I am supposed to, but oh well.

Gotta scoot...the dryer is going off and I still need to clean up the mess from dinner. I guess the whole family thinks I LIKE to clean up messes b/c that's ALL I EVER DO! I'll leave you with this...

Cleaning your house while your children are growing is like shoveling the drive while it's still snowing.

Yes this picture just may make the Christmas cards this year!

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Well, well, well...and some pictures!

Here I sit. I have so much I WANT to write about, but not enough time (at least I don't think). So I'll start and see where I end up...

Found out last week that I do NOT have to have surgery on my ankle. Doctor wants me to do some physical therapy and wean off the boot. I haven't worn the boot much the last 2 days just b/c it's so cumbersome and slows me down so much. But boy could I tell it this morning! I felt like one wrong turn and my ankle would just split in half. So, I start physical therapy on Thursday and should only have to do it for a few weeks. I'm hopeful I can go back to working out soon.

I really MISS working out. My eating has been crap b/c I feel like if I can't exercise, then why eat right. I know that is a horrible mind set but it's the truth. When I would work out, I always felt like I had to eat right b/c I was working out and fueling my body for those work outs. It's a vicious cycle these mind games we play with ourselves.

DS2 was been sick since Thursday. I had him at the pedi on Thursday afternoon where she gave him a shot for croup. Saturday night we were in the urgent care and they treated him for pneumonia--gave him a shot of antibiotic (he HATES oral medications) and started him on breathing treatments. Chest x-ray came back negative but they told me to go ahead and keep treating him.

Have you started your Christmas shopping yet? I have! DS2 is pretty much done minus his stocking stuffers and clothes. My neice and nephew are done and DS1 is started and I just have a few more things to get him. tackle everyone else on my list. Every year my list seems to grow but my budget doesn't. :)

So here are some fairly recent pictures of the boys and me.

This is DS2 on Halloween--he was a spider. Cutest spider EVER!!! But I may be a bit biased.

This is the boys and me and the dog (Sophie). DS1 was Transformer BumbleBee and Sophie was dressed up like a pumpkin. :)

This is DS1 on his first day of kindergarten--back in August. He hasn't changed much other than maybe gotten taller.

So there you have update of sorts. I'm still here, still fat, and still non mobile. Fun times in Amanda-land! :)

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Down...maybe out???

And I don't mean down as in losing weight down...

Two weeks ago (10/14 to be exact), I was walking DS1 out to the bus and my right ankle just rolled out from under me. I never fell per se, but I knew I had hurt it. Couldn't put any weight on it AT ALL. Went to the doctor the next day for an x-ray b/c I was for sure it was broke. It wasn't. So he tells me to rest (yeah right! I have 2 kids how can I rest?!?!) and take ibuprofen. So I start popping the motrin and the pain is hidden very well. Fast forward to 10/21 (my birthday). Doc's office calls back they need to speak to me ASAP about my ankle. I wasn't home and doc was getting ready to leave the office until this past Monday. I called back on Friday to see if the nurse would tell me anything...she couldn't/wouldn't. I knew then that it couldn't be good news. My foot/ankle had started to feel better but then it had started getting worse again. Doc calls me on Monday and thinks I may have a break somewhere and/or tendon/ligament damage, he sends me to a specialist ASAP. The NEXT DAY, I see the specialist. He orders an MRI and thinks I have tendon/ligament damage. He gives me a walking boot, tells me to wear it any time I am weight bearing and also gives me a compression sock to wear at all times as well to help w/ the swelling. The MRI is this coming Monday (11/2) and I have my follow up appointment w/ him next Thursday to make a definitive diagnosis and plan.

So...needless to say my workouts are now non-existent. I am so bummed. I may be looking at surgery...and if I need it, I'm not having it until January. I will NOT be laid up during the holidays. I don't care, I won't do it! I will NOT miss this time with my boys. And we're talking 8-10 weeks of recovery after surgery OR 8-10 weeks of physical therapy (if I don't need surgery). I had all these plans to do a half marathon in May. There's no way I can do that now if I can't even begin to think about working out for that until March! I'm so disappointed and discouraged.

So, I'm thinking about going to a Core lifestyle for eating (thank you Colette!) and doing a lot of pilates to strengthen my core and upper body. I love my legs and they've always been strong (or so I thought) so hopefully they will bounce back from this quickly. I don't know how to swim correctly and I don't have anywhere to go (FREE!) that I can use a pool in the winter. My diet is going to have to be PERFECT if I want to lose any weight. :( And we all know how hard that is!

So that's my update. My week has sucked eating wise, but I am going to try super duper hard this coming week. DH has put a monetary incentive out for us. Whoever loses the most per month (based on a percentage), will get an extra $50 of spending money in their budget for the month. WOO HOO!!!

Have a great weekend and HAPPY HALLOWEEN! Maybe I'll post some pics of the boys in their costumes...if I can get DS2 to wear his. He threw a FIT to even try it on!

Sunday, October 25, 2009

It's been a while...

I can't believe how long it's been since I blogged...WOW!!! A lot has happened but I'll post the major stuff...

DS1 started kindergarten in August and LOVES it. He just got his first report card last week and is doing so well. He's gotten a 'green light' every day which has shocked us!

DS2 is now 18 months old...and he is MEAN! LOL!!! But he is so stinkin cute and sweet. We absolutely adore him and he is his mamma's boy.

I'm still playing with 5# that I gained over the summer. I want to lose 10# by Christmas and I was doing really well in the work out department....but then I suffered a severe sprain on 10/14 to my ankle/foot. Actually, the doctor called me back last week and left a message that he needs to talk to me about the results of my x-ray. Well, of course they called on Wednesday (my birthday) and left the message but that the doc would be out until Monday. So, now I wait until tomorrow to find out if it's really broken or if it's a torn tendon or what. I am so bummed!!! I called the office on Friday to see if the nurse would tell me what was going on but she told be that the doctor himself wanted to talk to me...that can't be good!

I had a birthday last week--the big 3-1!

DH and I had an anniversary in June--9 years!

We started Dave Ramsey's Total Money Makeover in May and are now credit card debt free for the first time in our marriage AND all of our vehicles are paid for (we have 3). I am not sure on the total amount of money that we have paid off but it's been AWESOME for us and our marriage. We live on a budget now (never did before) and we don't argue at all over money. WOO HOO!!!

We are debating baby #3. DH is all on board but I am not. I really like the age Zac is now and I really, really, really hate the baby stage. I hate feeling tied to the house and I did until Zac quit nursing. I loved breastfeeding him but I hated feeling like there was so much I couldn't do. I never got a moment alone...and now I do. Tonight, both boys played outside together for well over an hour...if that's what next summer is going to be like, I'm all for having some time to myself again! I know that sounds selfish but between working full time, being the primary care giver, and running the household--this girl gets worn out! I think we will wait at least another year to make any major decisions.

That's all I can think of for now. I'm going to try to get back to blogging...but I'm addicted to facebook! I'm always on there...sometimes just wanting people to post something that I can read--LOL!!! I'll try to get some pictures of the boys on here soon...they are growing like weeds and eating us out of house and home!

Monday, April 6, 2009

I survived!

I did it. Almost 3 days alone with my boys. WHEW!!!

Did I mention I was also taking care of my neighbors animals while they were on spring break? So on Friday and Saturday, I had the 2 boys, 3 dogs (1 which was mine), a cat and a turtle to take care of. Oh and the neighbors dogs were sick while they were gone so I was scrubbing poo out of their carpet too at least once a day Tuesday until Friday. Yeah, fun times.

Can you say EXHAUSTED?!?! Oh yeah, that was me. I decided Saturday that I wanted to go out for dinner with my boys since I hadn't sat down the entire time DH had been gone--I'd even ate my meals standing up! I did get workouts in both Friday and Saturday. By Sunday, I was toast and so sore so working out was not in the cards. I got the house cleaned and straightened up, laundry done AND I KEPT it that way until DH got home. How come it's easier in that regard when the man isn't around?!?! I was so happy to see him walk in the door Sunday afternoon. We went out to dinner at Steak N Shake (more on that in a minute) and then I got to go to the store--ALONE. DH also let me take a shower UNINTERRUPTED after he got home so we could go out to dinner. It's the little things like that...whew. I have to hand it to any single moms out there--I bow to you. And to those whose husbands travel a lot for work (diet coke and zingers comes to mind right now as does Miss July)--I don't know how you do it and work full time! But we made it and everyone is happy and has their limbs--weekend was a success!

So, we went to Steak 'N Shake for dinner--DH orders a Diet Vanilla Coke. I LOVE Diet Vanilla Coke. So, I took a sip.....and it was the NASTIEST thing I have ever had! Oh it was gross! How did I ever inhale that stuff when we would go to Steak N Shake?!?! It was just plain gross. Makes me so proud to have broken that habit...and it's a lot cheaper when we go out too! :)

Gotta get some work done...Have a great OP Monday!

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Oh how I have missed you!

What have I missed you may ask?? What is it???

THE 160s!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE ARRIVED!!!!!!!

This morning on my scale I was down 2.6 from last week and my weight was 169.3!!!!!!!!!! WOO HOO!!!! I have been floating on air ALL DAY LONG!!! I'm so excited. This puts me with 3.3# to go before I get to the pre-pregnancy weight of 166. I am so freaking stoked, you have no idea! Tonight at my WI, I was down 1.8 for a grand total of 12# since going back to WW 3 weeks ago! On my scale, I've lost 8.6# in those 3 weeks so to say I am excited/thrilled/ecstatic is an understatement. I was really worried about this week too. This past weekend was not good, BUT I wrote it all down, accepted how many points I had went over and then paid back my flex points before today too. I only got in 1 day of exercise this week too :( I wanted to get in more but my body needs sleep in order to exercise and I didn't have much of it over the weekend so I think I've been making up for it this week. I hope to get in more days this week so we'll see how it goes. DH is leaving Friday night to go to his mom's for the weekend to take care of life insurance stuff with his mom--he may not be home until Sunday! I am going to be alone with the boys Friday AND Saturday. That should be interesting! As long as we all have all body parts intact when he returns, I will consider it a success! I may have some more gray hair that I just had covered but oh well. :)

I have 2 pairs of Gap Long and Lean Jeans in a size 12. Pair A fits me great, even falls off of my backside after a few hours (hello? what happened to my butt?!?!) and I love them. Pair B on the other hand is a totally different story. I tried to wear them today and they were pushing on my stomach so bad b/c they were tight it was insane! But again, they fell off of my butt! WTH?!? I guess Pair A was tagged wrong or something but darnit those are my FAVORITE jeans!!! I even love Pair B but it irritates me so much that they don't fit as well as pair A. UGH!!! I need to go shopping for some new pants but I am waiting to drop a few more pounds.

I have been diet coke/soda free for 153 days now! Five whole months without anything but water and the occassional sweet tea. {Pats self on back} :)

Tonight at the meeting, the topic was eating at social events--weddings, baby showers, 4th of July, Memorial Day, etc... The leader said something that really spoke to me--Don't focus on the food, focus on the EVENT. Wow. How brilliant is that? I love it and am really going to try to put it to use this upcoming 'event' season. Mine starts with my boys' birthday party. Izaac will be 1 in 3 weeks! How crazy is that?!?!

I am signing off now. I am getting up to work super early tomorrow (like 5 a.m.) so I can be done by 7 and hopefully before the boys wake up. Have a great OP weekend!

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Weigh in, the Bahamas, menu planning...

Went to my meeting Thursday night. I wasn't real sure about this WI b/c I hadn't exercised as much as I would have liked to the past week. I got in 4 days but the week before I had gotten in 5 days and some of those days had two-a-days in them. My scaled had only shown a .3 loss for the week, which BTW, is/was fine with me--at least it's down! Well, when I got to my meeting I was pleasantly surprised--DOWN 1.6 for a total of 10.2 in 2 weeks! HOLY COW!!! I was so thrilled!!!

I am going to have to be really diligent the rest of this week however. I am out of flex points and this is the first time I've had that happen since I've been back to WW. Actually, I went over my FP already this week. I had a Pampered Chef Party Friday night, ate out Thursday night after my meeting with some friends, then went out Saturday night with friends. It's been a crazy eating out weekend! I plan to get in some kind of exercise at least 4 out of the next 5 days. I really do like getting up early in the morning to get it done, I just need to go to bed earlier. :) I am .5 away from what I was on my scale back in December. I would like to at least lose that this week. I have my menu planned for the week so I shouldn't have any surprises.

Speaking of menus, I have been planning them out a month at a time and it's worked out SO WELL!!! We have our favorite meals that we rotate and we are also trying new things. It takes out so much stress from the hours of 5-7 every night. I highly recommend planning out your menus. When I think of something that sounds good that I want to have for dinner, I jot it down and put it in the menu at some point. It makes my grocery shopping easier since the meals are already planned! I have found another site that does a WW recipes. I've made a few from there and been happy with the results. You can see the site by clicking here.

DH and I booked a trip to the Bahamas at the end of May! WOO HOO!!! It will be just me and him for 6 wonderful, long, glorious days! Can you tell I am a wee bit excited about this trip? DH even asked me "what are we going to do for 6 days without the boys?" My reply was "SLEEP! A LOT!!!!" Oh gosh I can't wait to go on that trip. We've never been to the Bahamas so we are completely stoked about going. I realize I won't be bathing suit ready but darn it I am goign to try my hardest to look decent by then. I have a little less than 2 months at this point. I am so psyched!

I think that's it for me for now. My comments somehow got shut off on my last 2 posts. I have no idea how that happened but I have fixed it. Leave all the comments you want! Have a wonderful OP rest of your weekend!

Saturday, March 28, 2009


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Thursday, March 19, 2009

So much has happened...

WOW! It's really been that long since a real update. I figure I don't have any readers so no one is going to miss me when I'm not here. So much has happened, so let me start from the beginning (be warned...this is going to be long).

So last week (week starting 3/8)...I got up on Monday and exercised. Monday night started feeling sick. How come every time I start a good new healthy habit something has to happen to sabotage it?!?! Anyway...woke up Tuesday feeling like crap...opted for sleep instead of a work out. Both boys were sick too with the same thing--runny nose, scratchy throat, cough--total yucks. Tuesday was a beautiful day here last week and we stayed in all day b/c we all felt like poo. Was sick Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. Felt better come Friday but then baby had gotten worse. Finally on Saturday I felt better so I went back to my work outs. Worked out Saturday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and today. So now I'm current on my workouts. If it's nice in the evenings, DS1 and I go out for a walk after DS2 goes to bed. If it's nice during the day and both of them are home, we've been going for walks then too. This past Tuesday, I did 3 "workouts" in one day...the elliptical at 5 AM, a walk in the afternoon with Izaac strapped into the carrier and then one in the evening with Xander. My legs were mush Wednesday!

So that's about my workouts...they are going good and I am actually enjoying them. YAY!

So last week (back to week beginning March 8) DH and I were talking about saving money and how to save $$. He mentioned my trainer. I had been debating it for a while but last Wednesday (the 11th) I had a talk with myself in the shower. I had been working out, drinking water, and writing it all down but just doing that wasn't working. Whatever I was doing on my own wasn't working! This is the epiphany I had in the shower. I decided then and there that I would go back to WW--give up the trainer and go back to WW. I knew WW had free registration until the end of last week and I knew there was a meeting I could go to on Thursday nights. I talked with the trainer and told him I had to cut something out to save $$ and he understood so then I went back to WW. The trainer was $40 a week (I know, expensive!) and WW is 39.95 a month--so HUGE savings there. I wasn't sure I was ready to count points again, but I decided it was time to do something that I knew would work. I KNOW WW works....I just have to do it! So I went back, stayed for the new member orientation and everything and jumped back in 110%! I made myself do 4 workouts this week (now my weeks will run Friday to Thursday) but my goal is 5 every week. I wrote it all down, weighed and measured everything, didn't use too many of my FPs and went to my WI tonight. I lost....are you ready for this.....8.6# this week!!!! That's more than I ever have lost in a week EVER on WW! The very first time I did WW--the VERY first time when I didn't even know what I point was-I lost 8# my first week. So tonight was a total and complete shocker to me! I planned very well over the last week and I am so proud of myself.

Remember the Gap jeans I've been trying on? Today was try on #3 and THEY FIT! I've worn them all day today and I feel FANTASTIC!!!!! It's awesome what a different size of jeans will do for you. So my WI today on my scales showed me down 3.3 or something like that from last Thursday morning--172.2 today. Amazingly, the WW scales weren't that far off tonight from what it was this morning. Last Thursday, I ate all day before I went to the meeting where today I ate lunch and that was it for the afternoon. Although, for my own sanity, I will be going by my scale to reach my mini goals--the first one of which being to be OUT of the 170s FOREVER! I've been here for 6 months now and I am SICK OF IT!!! Spring is coming and I don't want to feel fat again this year. I feel better already. I want to be 166 by the boys' birthday party-if not less. I have plans for myself for certain milestones. I am going to get this weight off once and for all.

So I think that's about it. I know I said I would blog more, but it's hard for me. I try, I really do but most nights I choose to hit the hay a little early so I can get up and exercise the next morning..just like tonight. That's my cue to say good night! Have a GREAT OP day and weekend! :)

Wednesday, March 18, 2009


More on this later....

I will say this--that's a HUGE NSV!!!


Friday, March 6, 2009

OH NO....

Guess what? You won't believe this....

I'm pregnant!

Okay, did that get your attention?!?! If it did then show me some love and leave me a comment!

And no, I am not pregnant. At least I don't think I am. I better not be. That's the last thing I want right now.

I am here to report that I have worked out FIVE DAYS IN A ROW. Yes, that's right--5!!! And that's 2 work outs on Tuesday and Wednesday. Tuesday and today I strapped Izaac into the baby carrier and walked with him for 30 minutes. Now THAT is a work out!!! It's insanely hard with him strapped on the front and I am sweating when I am done. I have been getting up at (gasp!) 5 in the morning, getting on the elliptical for 15 minutes and then hitting the shower. It's amazing how good I feel the rest of the day. Next week, I will up the time to 17 minutes, then 20 minutes the week after. I will not let more than 2 days go by without exercise. I want to see 166 by the end of April--if not less than that. I was at 174.7 at my WI this week. I have a pair of Gap Long and Lean jeans that I LOVE. They are a size 12 and I know that is "vanity" sizing but I don't care. I love them and the way they look on me. I put them on today and they fit and I could get them zipped but the muffin top was still a little much for me to be comfortable. I am going to try them on again next Friday and see where they are. I am going to keep trying them on every week until they fit. And then when they do, you are going to hear me scream with excitement no matter where you live!

My trainer gave me a piece of motivation (or maybe I should say he gave me a can of whoop ass) a few weeks ago. If I go in to him and I do NOT lose weight...I can stay the same and I can lose .1, but I can't gain--if I do, I have to do the leg press TWICE! At the beginning of my work out and then again at the end like we always do. Let me just say how much I HATE the leg press--HATE it!!! Loathe it! It's my least favorite exercise but, according to my trainer (Kyle), it's one of the most important exercises there. But it still sucks. No matter how good it is for you. I don't care. This week, I barely made it. I lost .2 on his scales. This goes on until I hit the 160's on his scale. I go by my scales for my weekly weigh ins. It doesn't matter as long as I am consistent.

I didn't make it here at night this week b/c I went to bed so early. But I did write everything down that I ate this week. I have to give my journal's to Kyle every week when I see him. He looks over them and tells me where I need to improve. I have cut back my Starbuck's habit. I went there today for the first time in over 2 weeks. I am really trying to limit my trips there to no more than once a week. I feel as if I have a good plan and things seem to be going well. I WILL DO THIS!!!!!

I am signing off tonight. Have a wonderful OP weekend!!!

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Not a great day...

So I am not going to dwell on it. It wasn't a super sensational Sunday but it was a 'typical' Sunday for me. Why are Sundays so hard?? We are home, stuck inside b/c it's cold and all I want to do is eat and munch all day long. I did not write anything down, nor did I get in any exercise. But I am here and I said I was going to blog more often!

I have my alarm set for tomorrow morning. I am going to get up and get on the elliptical at 5. Yes, you read that right. That is my plan. I HAVE to stick to it. I will report here tomorrow if I succeed or not. I had a nice long serious talk with myself today. In order for me to lose this weight, I HAVE to make time for myself and my exercise. The best time is going to be first thing in the morning. I can get up at 5, get down on the elliptical for 15 minutes (I am going to work up to 30 minutes) and then shower and get ready and I can still clock in for work at 6. This is a good plan--I just have to put it into action. I CAN DO THIS!! I can do hard things!

Okay, I am off of here for tonight. No journal today b/c I didn't write anything down. Bad Amanda, bad! I will journal tomorrow. Until then...

Saturday, February 28, 2009


I know I have been talking about posting pictures forever! So here I am, FINALLY posting some.

DS2 is 10 months old now. WOW! Can you believe that?!? He is such a joy and a true blessing to our family. He is getting more independent and 'easier' so things have gotten a lot better/easier with him. He is just so much fun right now. Here are a few pictures I snapped of him this week.

Izaac and Sophie longing to be outside

He's learning young where the goods are--although he still prefers his mama! :)

Are you saving that for later Izaac?
He will NOT eat baby food hardly at all anymore. He has 2 teeth but he chews food like he has a whole mouth full. It's hilarious!

Finally some pictures of me. Let's do a re-fresher first. Here I am back in July at my starting point (or close enough to it). I hated this picture when my friend emailed it to me, but I thought it would make a great before shot.

And here I am in December 15# lighter.

Not a huge difference but enough of one--enough that I notice. That is the picture I put up on my facebook page. Which, BTW, is my newest addiction. I can't get on there at night b/c it sucks up so much of my time...hence why my blog has been neglected.

BUT...I am making a new resolution. Tomorrow is March 1st. I really wanted to be 159 by the boys birthday party (April 25) but I realize that is not going to happen now. BUT...I can make an effort to be out of the darn 170s! I have been here forever and I am SICK of it! So, I am re-committing to my plan--diet AND exercise. I can do this.

I will begin the process of weaning Izaac in about a month and I am really hoping once my body gets back to "normal" things will move a little quicker. I have been nursing this whole time so my body still thinks 'pregnant' i.e. no period, very slow weight loss, and my thyroid is still out of whack. Although I could handle this no period thing (sorry, I know TMI) b/c it has been SWEET to go almost 2 years without one! But I know once that starts back up and I'm done nursing, my thryoid doctor will probably adjust my meds so maybe things will go a little quicker. I have been losing hair like crazy lately and I know that's all hormonal too. It's great being a woman sometimes, isn't it?!?

But I can do this and I will. I've done it before. I am making small goals so maybe that will help. DH is also on the kick to lose some weight so maybe w/ him on the band wagon it will help. Although it's not him forcing the food down my throat.

I am going to make an effort to blog more. I need to blog. I don't blog for the comments, but man it sure does help. I don't do it for everyone else, I do it for me--I keep repeating this to myself so I will believe it. So I am going to blog more and get things out there. Maybe not every night but I am going to try! At least maybe my food journal. A few weeks ago I created a Twitter account to help me journal. It lasted a few days before I quit it. Good old pen and paper is the best thing for me I think. Although I will probably use my twitter account for other things. You can follow me here.

Okay, it's late and I am getting tired. So expect a post from me tomorrow!

Oh and I got on the elliptical this morning for 15 minutes! YAY!!!


Monday, February 2, 2009

Out of control...

I had this post in my head long before DH dad died Friday night. But now it's even worse...

My eating has been HORRIBLE the past few weeks. I just can't shake the bad eating that I did at Christmas. I can do GREAT at breakfast, then I fall apart at lunch and during the afternoon. It's been insane. I've had to cancel my sessions with the trainer the last 2 weeks due to work stuff.

Speaking of work....

I got put on a new task at work and I LOVE it. I really do. It's so much fun and it's a welcome break from the mundane of coding that I do every day.'s also stressful. The first 2 weeks doing it, something changed about it every day and it was like "crisis mode" every day. Do this, do that, do it NOW, change this, change that, NOW! It was INSANE!!! But it's been better this past week. I'll miss it this week since I'll be gone all week but I really do look forward to it every day. I'm glad the stress of it all is over (for the most part) though. But that was another thing leading me to the afternoon eating fiascoes.

I had it in my head last week "February 1" I would get back on track and do better. Then all this happened with DH father and now I am surrounded by baked goods, all kinds of food, and I really don't know how to deal with this type of thing. I am here at my MIL house and I just don't know what to do. I don't know how to deal. DH is a typical man. The only time I have seen him tear up was when we told DS1 Saturday morning. That was the toughest thing I think I've had to do as a parent. Giving birth was much easier. He knew his "papaw Mike" and he loved him. Xander cried when we told him and I expect he will cry when he sees him tonight at the visitation. I have yet to see DH cry--EVER in the 13 years that we've been together. He got tears in his eyes at our wedding when we were saying our vows but that was it. Everyone keeps asking me what they can do and I don't know. I keep asking DH if he's okay and he keeps telling me yes but I keep asking him anyway. This is such a hard thing to go through and I am trying the best I can to be there for DH and his mom and sister. I feel like I'm not doing anything but sit here. I vacuumed the living area this morning, I think I'm going to sweep the kitchen floor next. I just need to keep busy...but the food keeps calling me. UGH!!! Oh well. I'll be better once we get back home...whenever that may be.

I have been keeping off the diet coke so that's a plus. I have decided once we get home I am swearing off fast food. I have to get off of it. It's been a vice lately. I HAVE to swear it off. I am going to plan the menu for February. I have my laptop with me and the list of the meals that I have thought of and that DH and DS1 have requested. Maybe I'll do that Tuesday night....

Sorry for rambling but I needed to get my thoughts out. I have time on my hands right now so why not blog it all out? Thanks for listening/reading if you made it this far. :) I will be back to my old perky self soon. :)

Saturday, January 31, 2009

Bad news...Prayers please

If you are the praying type, would you mind to say a prayer for my DH and all of his (our) family?

DH dad died Friday night. He had been in the hospital for about 2 weeks and they were moving him to a rehab facility and he coded in the ambulance. He had signed a DNR so there wasn't a whole lot they could do for him. From what the coroner said there was a blood clot somewhere that traveled to his heart....more than likely it was in his lung and traveled to his heart. He had COPD, emphysema, CHF, diabetes, and morbid obesity. He had been on oxygen for the last 4+ years and slowly gotten worse.

So if you could send some good thoughts, prayers, vibes, etc... I would greatly appreciate it!!! Needless to say, we are traveling and not sure when we will be back home.

I have a post in my head I want to get out...NEED to get out. Hopefully I will at some point this week.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

71 Days...

It has been 71 days since I have had any sort of diet soda or any soda for that matter!

I'll say it again.

71 DAYS!!!!!!!!

This coming from the girl who HAD to have her diet coke EVERY day! AT least 1, if not 2 or 3! I can't believe I've done it. I amaze myself sometimes.

You know what's really ironic? I haven't been eating the greatest the last 2 weeks. Christmas, Superjayman was in town, New Year's,'s not been the greatest. And with all the bad eating--I have been CRAVING a diet coke. I haven't given in and I don't intend to. Water is my new best friend...with the occasional tea--UNSWEETENED.

I still can't believe it.

Monday, January 5, 2009

Even the dog is sick!

Yep, that about sums up my week and start of the New Year.

Happy New Year!

Is it spring yet?

Seriously. I am so dead serious. I want it to be SPRING!!! I am sick of being sick, having sick kids, cleaning up vomit, diarrhea, snot, and ear yuckiness.

We went home the day after Christmas to have Christmas with the fam. NEVER again. NEVER! This is why we don't go home for the holidays. My kids get sick, then I get sick, then DH gets it too. Or vice versa...but we all get it. UGH!!! DS1 has been sick all weekend running a very high fever (105 at one point) so I had him at the doctor today. At this point, I just have to laugh about it. Even my real life friends are like "you can't catch a break!" No, I can't but at least I can laugh about it.

So that's why you haven't heard from me. I have all kinds of posts in my head, but lacking the time to get them out. I hope to do a 'real' post soon. I will say being sick sure gets rid of the holiday pounds though. Although my eating today wasn't stellar, tomorrow will be better. I go back to the trainer on Wednesday!

Happy New Year!